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2011-04-21T12:38:00.001-07:00

Eh Eng Lee dun read arh.

2009-12-10T09:37:00.000-08:00

Depressing things dun come alone too often.
Happiness from anything doesnt last too.
But well from another point of view
Cheery things dun come alone most of the time
Sadness doesnt last too.
Experience all 4 in one day. And i didnt find it an eventful day either.
Weird..

2009-12-07T06:27:00.000-08:00

Did something happen with the blog counter?
O well juz dusting abit...
Exams end in 3 days and then Seoul garden!!!
23rd, hmm wat are the odds.
Cya

2009-10-16T05:38:00.001-07:00

Wah very happy rite now :D

2009-10-09T02:46:00.001-07:00

The big D came!!
And its leaving already...

2009-07-03T11:18:00.000-07:00

Wah poly start sooo long this 2nd update nia rofl...
Wah shit forget wat i wanna say..
Talk about projects, damm bad sia scared next sem no1 wan me for project.. Keep getting distracted and nvr do much work lols... Maybe shld try talking and voicing out my ideas more..
Wah 2 cca... Drop liao, wanted 4 now only 2.. And 2 is plenty enuf. its not about the time, its about the injury and body rest. Everytime judo b4 karate always kana some injury. Sprain ankle, hurt ribs, sprain neck and sore muscles... Damm sian... But well its good to know im good at judo for now... Winning most of my sparring anws... Woots
Bboying!!! Any1 wanna join me? Learn some basic shit and stuff... Prolly no1 but hey why not blog it. My blog is like rotting anws and they might be takers rite? rite? Well maybe not..
Haiz so hard to stay of the freaking comp. Everyday i waste like 5hours tat i can use for studying practising i spend on utube and fb and msn.. ARGH!?!?
So sick of being a zainan, finally deleted dota and all the games, but im still addicted to comp.. Well bad habits die hard i guess.. crap...
Wah nvr expected cca to be fun. Pri sch cca sux ass, sec sch sux ass. Wtf sia knn i look at all the other cca the cca points like oxygen liddat free one, then sjab kniaw like dunno wat shit.. Why cant they be more freaking generous, so much time we put in sia... And its sux somemore the training..
Hmm i guess its true, life is not about wat u did, how well u did it or how u did it. Its about whether u did what u wanted... So i guess now i nid to find wat i really want to do, and im very sure tat its not wasting my time on fb or utube. Damm gotta kick tat habit
Wow this post sure is long, long time since got such a long post.. Welllllll, its a good thing i guess.
Cya

2009-06-08T11:04:00.000-07:00

WOOOO update at last...
Poly is... quite fun, new class, environment, timetables, cca, friends and most importantly a fresh start.. Great start i guess, much better than the shit i did in sec sch.. Rofl, looking back i wonder how did i end up so sucky in sec sch.. Well its over now, hopefully i dun screw up my poly too.. Haa.
Erm erm, feel kinda depressed though, about cca... Sucks man
Well... I guess tat cant be changed though, most i can do is complain about it to ppl who willing to listen....
Sch is freaking easy man... Fa econs pom rofl damm slack man.. But comm skills haiz... Fuking sian
ROFL damm funny when i think about it, most of the ppl i know in sec sch, i dun even talk to anymore haha, friends really do come and go.. Its true...
Haiz so sad, the older u are, the more sucky life gets. Im still 17 and i feel so sian already, wat to do when im 40+ 0.0
Ok nothing to say liao, not so open about my feelings anymore... Guess tats another part of life.
Cya

2009-04-11T08:13:00.001-07:00

Wow i ate snails, want to try cockroach and cricket too...
Happy bdae to myself.. Lols so pathetic
Thx to si en jian min and ming fong for the birthday wish lols.
Erm erm, wah the new tampines shopping mall damm crowded la, especially the japanese stuff man, Sg peeps are japan crazy...
Haiz now got fb blog like damm useless already... Like no nid to blog one lor.. Can close again soon liao
Cya

2009-04-06T05:43:00.000-07:00

Wah in the future when im older, im definately going rmb reading manga as one of my fav pastimes, mangas are so nice to read sometimes, juz like how drama used to be for me, until the plots became so similar, almost identical for every single freaking drama, haiz then so sian liao. Manga so nice and fresh... Keeps ur heart and soul alives sometimes when im so damm bored and the only ppl im interacting with are assholes from garena... If not i sure become another asshole in garena man...
Fuck garena peeps
Cya

2009-03-18T10:28:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wonder behind the game who is the person playing...
I think only sg has this problem, the net is full of super ego freaks who are so super confident of their skills... Wats wrong with them, if u won it u won it, why scold the opponent.. Who are the ppl who make up the majority of the gaming population... I wonder if its kids, ah bengs or juz adults who wont grow up... Internation games are so much better with nicer ppl... Argh nid to control my emotions.. Sometimes i juz get pissed for something so minor and i wonder why...
Haiz, but seriously, singapore is a great country, but the online singaporeans are pathetic. Maybe its becoz losers like to go online coz they are protected on the screen, or maybe their life is screwed already so they dun haf anything to lose by causing trouble. Either way, i think something nids to be done. Not juz online but for the delinquents who haf nothing to do but to make life for the normal singaporean worse...
Haiz, fk these screw-ups

2009-03-05T09:18:00.000-08:00

Wow Gym then muay thai again..
Gym for 1+hr then supposed to go jogging.. But everytime will walk 1round jog 1 round rest jog 4 rounds then rest then free jog. Stupid rest is nidded coz i always nid to shit after the first round.
But todae, After the 1st round got alot pri sch kids came then dun feel like jogging liao.. They practise for their sport meet i guess.
Wow nvr knew that actually being buffed can be bad, apparently if u haf alot muscles, u get tired more easily due to higher energy consumption and oxygen comsumption, so having smaller,effiecient and using proper techniques is better than being buffed during fighting..
Argh muay thai seems like it has alot of things to learn. After learn still nid practise and incoporate into a move that u can use muscle memory to pull off.. With the huge amount of techniques i think its gonna take a year or 2 b4 i can be good at it. Still nid condition body and mind... Walao, but then its fun so i guess its good...
Wah todae went down then raining like siao, then i go up take umbrella the rain stop, then i damm du lan. Scold the weather rofl, BUT after the lesson, i going home rain like siao, lucky got bring umbrella, so the weather was actually helping me rofl.. Make me bring umbrella for later, sort of like a blessing in disguise or something.

2009-03-02T08:28:00.001-08:00

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ROFL. Haha, damm sian... login facebook check the wall.. Nuu she login but nvr tio accept. But somehow i was smilling...-.-"
Weird.. And i am still smiling now..-.-"
Weirder... But anws... Hmm.. Around a month till b4 poly start.. Oh god damm boring..
No jobs available, not much friends to go out with and no important thing to do...
Well at least theres muay thai and gym though.. And of coz my stupid comp.
Decideded to open this on poly start first day, but then, juz felt like opening/re-opening this todae..
Heck, Rofl one more thing they check my bmi i was 160 and 58 kg.. HAHAHAHA wtf... bullshit man.. So now my bmi is like 22 or something.. Rofl...
Seems like some1 is experience wat i experienced roughly a year ago rofl.. Hope he and his friends makes the right decision. Haha
Hmm i guess tats all..
Look up!! Tats y i closed this blog, 4 months and only a few lines to write... Rofl..
Oh yeah.. Im in accounting and finance for ppl who wanna know and dunno.. But i guess no one fits tat criteria anws...
Cya

2008-11-21T08:20:00.001-08:00

Yo.. So long nvr come..
Chalet not very fun.. Coz i dun really know my classmates... But with the roy gang very fun.. Monopoly damm fun coz i won again.. But nothing much since most of the time im playing xbox coz nothing esle to do.. BBq sucks take so long to cook the chicken then i only eat one.. zzz.. Then the stupid bbq so little food sia... Either tat or some people thick skin ate alot...
Walao head damm pain lah!!!
Oh yeah um guys... If there are any... Dun bother to come back here anymore coz i wont be updating much...
Cya

2008-10-12T05:57:00.001-07:00

Woo went air port study from11pm till 7am.. damm cool... Go there is dark come back is brights... Opposite of normal lols... Study a maths and ss.. Stupid sia first priority is gulf war and bonding sg tgt.. If study one haf to study the other too coz might come as ONE question... Zzz both also i nvr study b4... So sian... healthcare globalization conflict and good governance... Shld be enuf.. Scared later suay suay all nvr come out for O'lv...
Then got this xiao lian boy... Damm fucked up... Pri 2 only come scold ppl vulgarities and scold ppl mother.. Wtf lah... And his mom was there somemore-.-" Ridiculous... But then not juz tat boy... Alot of boys now around pri 4 and lower one liddat one lols.. Tat time play table tennis also see, in the few game thing also. Walao... Wth man, wat are the parents doing... How come they can scold other ppl parents and insult ppl at the age of 8... ZZZZ.. And we were juz sitting there studying!!! Then h started throwing crayons at me coz i scold him.. HAHAHA stupid sia..
Anws although it was irritating it was quite fun too nvr expect to see this kinda ppl, especial not one who is 8years old..
Cya

2008-09-27T00:20:00.000-07:00

Zzz...
Lols want to blog about this stupid thing.. damm irritating at that point of time but now its kinda funny..
Was walking home with syafiq keefe and hj.. Then got some bastard called casper come find trouble with us for no reason at all.. He started scolding us and confront us wan fite with us.. Damm unreasonable.. He ask us wat we wan then slap ppl for point at him.. Wtf sia is he start first one... Then we didnt dare fight cause yeah we're from tms we humji guai kias... No matter wat happens i think no matter wat guai kias will be guai kias we wont dare do this kinda of things one.. Maybe some ppl thnk yeah we more responsible more smart wont do this kinda of stupid thing.. But still its very pathetic when some1 bothers u for no reason and u juz back off.... Its smarter but its like so sissy also... if only these ppl haf enuf balls to fite alone instead of threatening to call their gang and watever shit... Pls lah i know ur sch alot of pai kias like u our sch nohaf as many so u got more ppl help u beat other ppl up.. But if u wan to bother ppl pls make sure u at least dare to fight 1 on 1 instead of calling more ppl to outnumber us like some sissy.. Fucking pathetic both for me and for him...
But yeah every1 got their own set of principal and rules.. If his principles and rules are so fucked up... And i didnt do anything to change it, then i shouldnt complain.. But yeah its soo wtf that i still haf to... Haiz... If only O lvs werent a month away one less reason not to fight...
cya..

2008-09-08T09:35:00.001-07:00

FARKKKK U EDULEARN!!! I type wrong password u tell me wrong ID make me so confused!!! ARGH!!!
Hope my english do well... So long since i did a personal recount...

2008-09-08T06:27:00.001-07:00

Wah checking scripts is damm fun man.. Ok no.. Getting the results is damm fun man.. explaining the answers is damm sian.. especially for maths.. Why they also give SOO much time got e maths... Damm weird... E maths too much time A maths and science too little time.. Humanities paper is made so that normal ppl cant finish the paper.... Stupid...
E maths A1.. Expected.. Since every1 got like A1... ALMOST EVERY1!!! And my A1 is the juz made it tat kind... Haiz..
Wah im damm happy pass my SS man.. The teacher damm scary.. Scold 4/4 and 4/1 till like siao.. Then i was like shitttttt... Sure F9 liao.. Coz my class got like 8 F9 and i couldnt think of 8 ppl to fill in the spots.. So i tot omg sure one of them is me liao.. Lucky pass hahaha.. At least there one improvement from last term, i failed ss coz of stupid spotting of topics.. luckily this time i study all except for bonding sg and gulf war...
Lucky lucky.. Now one A1.. See wat the other 7 and a half subjects get!!!
Tml will be heart pounding... Its english and Amaths!!! i think...
Damm scared for chem.. mite be the first time i fail a science paper... I havent failed an exam for science so far.. But this time the chem damm hard for me... Got mixed reactions for this paper.. Some ppl say damm easy some say damm hard.. So weird... Oh well..
Cya

2008-08-26T04:16:00.001-07:00

Wah after so long finally can come online... Nvr use for like wat.. um 3 4 days.. Tats alot... well at least for me...
Lols... Ppl study b4 a maths exam.. we went sparring... Hahaha damm funny... I threw hj and clavin on the ground.. i got thrown 3 times... damm funny.. Sparring is fun
Any1 interested in kickboxin? I juz nid a partner to try the moves on...
Oh the a maths paper 2 was DAMMM FUN!!! Quite hard some of the question but soo fun... soo fun.. hope i dun fail... Got two question soo HARD... argh..
DAmm sian still got physics.. WALAO.. And i tok about physic rmb about chem
The chem like damm wth sia.. No time to finish.. My hand cannot write properly at all tat time.. Electrolysis and organic chem sux man...
The chinese worse.. I dun understand the word and the dictionary dun haf the meaning.. Walao... Wat is chi fen?? Pool anger?
Argh... But then at least kickboxing is cool... hurts my back though...
Cya...

2008-08-22T04:34:00.000-07:00

Watched olympic boxing... Damm hard to score points.. I see alot of hit to the head and torso. (Points are scored by clean hits to the head and torso)But no point recorded... Then saw one dude(a) win the other dude(b) by two points in the end by penalty.. dude(b)keep holding dude(a)... Then at first dude (a) was winning then dude(b) win in the end at around 30 sec left coaz the referee give him two points... Poor dude(b) so sad that he cry poor dude.. But i like dude(a) fight damm cool.. He shorter abit so he keep chionging to get close.. Then dude(b) taller muz keep his distance.. And dude(b) reactions damm fast... Whoosh then he avoid the punch damm cool... And i think heavyweight nicer to watch then lightweigh.. Heavy weight the punches dammmmm fast got around 1-2 sec they throw about 7 punches at each other... Cannot even see the hand properly...
Todae no sch damm shiok... Monday chem chem txbk in sch.. Walao..
cya

2008-08-19T06:13:00.000-07:00

Damm shiok.. The a maths soo easy... But then every1 found it easy... And got so many careless mistakes... Forget modulus, nvr add the bottom surface of the well... So sian..
Econs so hard... Haiz first time sia..
Left two science and half of a maths... Nothing esle to worry bout..
Si en is an IDIOT HAHAHA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rsom99Ds43U
Damm funny...
Dunno wat to say also...
Bye

2008-08-13T06:31:00.000-07:00

Chinese O's lvs.. Got good news bad news and great news and not so great news...
Bad news... only C5... Good news at least pass.. Great news i can retake and haf high chance of doing well coz of oral.. Not so great news i haf to spend time on chinese again..
Haiz.. wtf i muz haf like failed my written chinese sia..
No good to run with stomachache... Make it feel like wanting to shit even more..
Damm the ss prelims.. Wtf...
English oral.. Wats ur fav haircut.. Wtf... how to say haha.. Hope its not so bad when its my turn..
cya...

2008-08-05T05:47:00.000-07:00

Damm sian.. why muz haf exam b4 the cross country.. damm ruin the mood....
Ants in mouth??Use water to rinse off... In a bad dream i had...
The Joker is damm cool.. and stylo
Bubble tank is fun.. really.. its damm fun
http://armorgames.com/play/1920/bubble-tanks-2
Good for wasting some time...
I forgot wat i wanna say again...
Cya

2008-08-01T06:06:00.000-07:00

Haha super funny videos.. Down..

Spinning is fun!!!

More spinning fun

Even more spinning fun

Now for fainting fun..The way he faint is dammmmmmm funny!!!:D

Hahaha damm funny sia.. So long nvr have so much fun liao.. In the stupid playground hahaha...Soldier front!!!!

Mao Dun... haiz...

Cya

2008-07-30T06:03:00.000-07:00

Wow rats are quite big.. I saw a dead one on the walkway on my way home.. Hahahha really looks like its sleeping... Except it looked like a very uncomfortable position to sleep in...
90cent shops rox... So m&ms, timtam, oreo all at 90cents.. Soo cheap!!!
I enjoy drawing MUSHROOM ppl... Its the only thing i draw that doesnt make me want to tear it up...
Crosscountry run next week... So great.. At last i can run its after 2 years... Stupid duty always make me miss it... And some monkey mite be serving MILO hahaha
Aww... Detention for being late...:(
Hmm.... Nvm..
Cya

2008-07-21T07:51:00.000-07:00

Jumpp.... CRack.. Lols why sprain got crack sound? Dun understand..
Woah this is some supersprain man.. CAnt even friggin walk properly...
Walao... Crazy sia.. I tot mite be something like dislocate or fracture.. In the end juz sprain nia..
Physics notes progessing damm slowly.. chap 6... Walao nid to chiong liao.. Later no time..
Stupid sia.. Go play bball haven 10mins injured liao.. Walao damm suay..
Cya

2008-07-16T06:44:00.000-07:00

WahLao its friging tiring to do notes on physics.. I do like half hour still not done with chapter... Maybe im being too detailed... Really my notes are good!!! SERIOUS!!
Anws wah damm sian in sch... I finally start my journey for O's...
I rmb wat i wan say tat time... I feel like an anti-zombie when i have headache and diarrhea at the same time.. I feel like shitting my brains out...
Cya

2008-07-14T06:32:00.001-07:00

Oh man... I always complain how i hate drama serials.. But i think that the books i read also very drama.. Maybe its dramatism tat is appealing?
Wah sibei sian... So sian tat i cant think rite now my mind's blank...
Oh well since cannot think then bb
Cya

2008-07-08T07:12:00.000-07:00

Lols finally an interesting day for once!!!
First period Chem, didnt do ss damm exciting to try to do ss while listening in class.. But managed to get in everything anws, can even teach keefe
SS, damm said couple of lame comments tat no one laughed at... Funny story by mrs ho..
Geog, tot mrd suriadi no come, in the end got come, got do hmwk but no dif.. nvr check
Recess, finally got italian spagaetti in veggie store.. damm salty i like
Alive, not so fun replay of last year.. same video same talk.. so sian
Maths as aways.. mrs lim is so funny... And i won hj in maths
Chinese i "threw" a pen at barbara, accident fly out of my hand.. lols and she was dammmmmmm pissed.. Opps.. Of all directions tat way.. Lols..
After sch cao ge dvd!!!
Library to study!! Met in kfc. cal el and teck.. Completed bikini beach
Study damm fun.. Got cheap food there too.. Tml go again:)

Actually not so interesting.. Juz tat juz now keefe damm funny.. LOLs
Cya

2008-07-06T06:55:00.000-07:00

FUCKING HELL...
I got freaked todae.. Got some cockroach land on my head.. Damm gross... Omg i damm scared of cockroach now..
Feel like got so many little pins pokin my skin.. Eugh!!!
Yucks... Tml labour day!! And im gonna try to study!!!
With a monkey...
Cya

2008-07-01T05:49:00.000-07:00

Lols.. Hong Jie HAHAHA.. OMG ITS DAMM FUNNY
Cant believe no one passed chem spa trial.. Wth
Wah... I rmb got something to post, but forgot wat liao..
Oh well

2008-06-26T06:06:00.000-07:00

Bball instead of chinese remedial for oral.. It was worth it..
Damm fun sia.. So many ppl get tgt play bball... Got one whale,lizard,fungi,pebble,nigger,monkey,loser and justin bball..
Its not the thing we do, it the people that are doing it tgt... Damm funny...
Tml chinese oral... GG
So boring.. I did ss for almost an hour and i still gana in the end.. Haiz, do thing really muz do finish if not no point...
Hate sch.. noting much interesting one.. But i realise doing hmwk actually quite fun... And tat Amaths and physic and chemistry are quite interesting.. But... Its juz too tedious to learn so many at one shot...

2008-06-21T09:02:00.000-07:00

Free Loop(The blog song rite now)
I'm a little used to calling outside your name
I wont see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough,
I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah I've been fabulous through to fight my town a name
I'll be stooped tomorrow if I don't leave as them both the same
But i dont know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But I don't know enough, I need someone who leaves the day
Hey yeah Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
Cause it's hard for me to lose In my life
I've found only time will tell
I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby We can change and feel alright
Cause it's hard for me to lose In my life
I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can babyWe can change and feel alright

Haiz.. Dun really get the song.. Maybe its really kinda makes no sense? But it gives me the feeling tat its about how hard its is for change but its bring good in the end... But change is unpredictable and only time can tell... But i guess not all changes are good:(
But the song is so addictive.. Its like a happy tune to a sad song... Like a happy person with a sad life... And the whole song is use jia ying...

Cya

2008-06-21T08:54:00.000-07:00

Changed blogskins.. Haiz i guess blogs really are meant for females.. Its like get blogskins damm mafan muz change alot.. Even change liao i still think the blogskin very feminine... Its like either its a girl blog skins, or some emo emo one..
And still dunno how to change the blog some stuff.
Why my links some gana cross and some got underline? Why?
And the tag board doesnt fit well...
Aw wtf
Anws bbq was quite sian.. But got some fun ppl. Shao zheng(looks like my cousin sia), jiahao, two malay girls... Damm funny.. The two malay girl laugh liao cannot stop... Keep laughing and laughing and laugh at everything even if its not a joke...
But damm little ppl come.. No AHS ppl come.. Tms also like almost all mia.. Junyuan and Yuying the most enthu...
Cya.. And sch start tml SIAN.. Its as if the holiday started when it ended...

2008-06-18T07:51:00.000-07:00

Sian phone spoil.. now stuck with nokia.. NOKIA.. sian
Chalet was fun!!! Didnt sleep 2nd nite.. stay awake playing monopoly with roy,jacalyn,jai hui,fadlon... Monopoly damm fun sia.. I got like 18k in the end and almost all the property...
Casion royale sucks.. Three hundred and the feast is gory.. Scary movie is damm funny
The jaccuzi there damm shiok... Roy cannot pronounce words properly.. I rock at guitar hero 3.. And psp djmax is DAMM FUN
Too bad i missed truth or dare in the morning haiz.. so sian
Cya..

2008-06-11T05:09:00.000-07:00

I couldnt believe any1 would be studying now during the hols..
Now i feel like maybe no1 else would believe any1 is NOT studying during the hols..
Wtf.. How do ppl keep studying.. ITS THE FREAKIN HOLIDAYS....
Lols... Probably coz im juz so damm lazy..
Heehee..Cya

2008-06-06T05:07:00.001-07:00

HeEhEeEeEE!!!
I feel damm fucked up rite now.. Stomach pain... Nb
Anws.. Wtf... Dun blame life if u aint doing anything to fix and get wat u wan.. if u even want it in the first place..
But....... Maybe some1 other than me will take the intiative in the future.. Maybe far far in the future or maybe not so far far in the future... And those who are.. for a lack of a better word humble(opposite of pride.... full... Wtf my eng sux) and come may reminsence the past... Yeah i guess its over now.. But then.. Wth a miracle happened b4, why not again... Heeee
Wtf, to think some1 else other than me still tot about it:) Makes me kinda happy, u know like to know im not the only one... but kinda sad coz its so negative----
Cya...

2008-06-04T07:01:00.000-07:00

WALAO. I TYPE THE WHOLE DAMM THING AND I DELETED THE WHOLE POST.. NOW I HAF TO TYPE AGAIN...
Mix.. evaporated milk pepsi chilli sauce brownsuagr sauce ginseng ngo hiam raw egg jelly.. Wat u get? A damm disgusting drink to drink when u gana for open numbers!!! LOls
Seoul Garden damm shiok doo all kind of crap there.. Mix chocolate ice cream with pepsi.. Damm nice!!!
JACKPOT AGAIN!!!
Cya

2008-06-02T05:43:00.000-07:00

Wow maybe personality and courage does shine thru after all..
Got shocked todae, jealous but i guess happy..
Didnt expect though but still... Good job for him..
Maybe should be more friendly...
Haiz...
Cya...(Not long, blog becoz this is really.. Special.. Well for me anws)

2008-05-24T02:18:00.000-07:00

Slack time coming soon. Gonna try my best to train back up... Muz be able to do 3digits of pushups again... Wtf cant believe muscles are gone so fast and easy... Hope they are easy to gain back too...
Stupid malay boy pissed me off..
Jaspal wan 1v1.. Walao.. Poor ppl in his class always gana harassed by him luckily now different class le.. Hope he attends Grad nite:) HEHEE
Chinses old lv on mon.. Gotta get lucky..
Sian sian fail ss.. 2 careless mistake, lost 14marks sbq.. seq study wrong topic.. NEXT TIME GOT MIDYEAR DUN STUDY SEC 3 TOPIC FOR SS THEY DUN COME OUT!!!
Physics lost 9 mark due to carelss.. If not can get a2 B4
Chemisty only lost 7marks.. if not b4 liao. But didnt study for chem anws so wth...C5
English first time in my life fail, but i guess its not so bad when 60% of the cohort also fails along with meD7
Chinese.. Suay.. Guess the chi yu tian kong only one correct..C6
Maths, no commenns.. Guess its ok since no studyB3
A maths, YES MY EFFORTS PAID OFF.. F9 TO B4!!! 5 GRADES HAHAHAHA B4
Geog, sian sian, i misintrepret question 8 marks qns gana zero-.-"C5
Econs, not bad bah.. but then nvr study much so its ok...A2
Lols guess im the only idiot who posts all my results up on a blog.. Well, it is something tat wont complain no matter how much i crap.. so wth..
Gotta buff up
Cya

2008-04-19T09:55:00.001-07:00

Hit the jackpot...
Moving on bye bye...
Will come back during june hols...

2008-04-11T06:58:00.000-07:00

B-day today..
Wished by around 20ppl nia bah... But got a gift this year...
A shirt from 7 ppl.. Rite? Who the 7? Tag if u see this leh.... Lols good man u two still rmb from so long ago:)
Sibei wth sia, karaoke the upper sec so many of them sing like crap-.-" teck was like telling me eh u lost to them leh.. No eh we lost to them leh.. Walao, mu nai yi, ai ne and qing hua qi?? WTH SIA....
After that went lan 3 free hours due to b-day, then went to eat at KFC didnt pay at all lols 4 chickn large mash potato CAKE and drink popcorn chick and cheese fries.
Went home celebrate again cake and sing song and take pic, eeyer this year only one song-.-" Deprovement eh wait no erm this year two songs.... But still deprovement ah...
Haiz, sweet sixteen.. Sound so gay....
Cya

2008-04-07T07:56:00.000-07:00

Woohoo its a guessing game guessing games.... Wonder who it is
Its a waiting game waiting games... Wonder how long more
Its a boring game boring games... A game i hate to play
Its a acting game acting games... Like a drama in real life
:):):):):):):):):):): Now are these smilies or frownies i dun know? Damm it didnt work well on the tagboard.. a frowny appeared-.-"
Haiz, damm sian-.-" Felt like toking cock coz damm long nvr talk rubbish to any1 liao-.-"
And monkeys are waterproof..
Cya

2008-04-06T08:09:00.000-07:00

Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites Hypocrites
Lols i still rmb when i tot it was pronouced as Hi-po-cried.. Haha, ppl seem to act as if they are force to be hypocrites.... Like real-.-" Not like the person u are dealing with is god or something, dunid fix it lah, why choose to deal with it and look all happy and look like u like that person-.-"
Yeah i guess still hypocrites do get far in many things they do because, i've got living examples rite next to me.... But i feel if i get wat i wan by bootlicking and acting, i rather not get it... Seems like i wont be getting any favoritism... Since most ppl like ppl to bootlick them anyways... Sometimes i think that they arent even held back by authority and power, its juz tat they haf the impression of tat, but its juz their own weak will and cowardness to stand up that make them think they juz haf to "grin and bear"
Dammit man every1 lvling so fast in cabal.. And so many are ADDICTED yay!!!
Oh yes one more thing, i didnt get wat i want BUT im content!! YES I REALLY AM!!!! Thank you for showing me ur sides of the stories:) But yeah, gotta haf time to forge, lets juz hope i dun forget u guys along with it... Lols juz joking..
Cya... I was so lucky todae, happy happy mood:)

2008-04-03T05:04:00.001-07:00

Huh? Yeah would haf expect tat... I almost nvr seen u anrgy b4, but i tot maybe this would do it... U haven heard from me for a long time? I haven heard from u for an even longer time....
Forgive and forget, theres nothing much to forgive, and there nothing worthless enuf to forget...
Cya

2008-04-03T04:59:00.000-07:00

Dear Mum,
I can forgive but i cant forget.. How can i forget all this? If i forget this, my secondary school life will haf nothing to look back for when i grow up.. And im full of hatred but i wil only remain here, it wont affect my school work or watever and also im sure that ppl who dun read this blog will know im a happy person overall anyways... This blog is juz to release steam u know, im not carrying a heavy burden at all... For i know many more of my friends carry a much heavier burden than me.... And if u wan to go Europe, i dun really wan to go skiing, coz i dun enjoy going overseas as much as u do, so y dun u do wat u wan instead of doing wat i wan... After going to Europe or where u wan to go will definately but more fun for u than for me to go skiing....
Cya

The other half

2008-04-02T06:04:00.000-07:00

Oh man this is it.. I've been deciding whether to post this here, it probably will cause some ppl to hate me and know thta i actually much much much much much MUCH MUCH MUCH mroe selfish than i look and act...
My friends if u think i still like u, promise me and urself u wont desert me becoz of wat u are about to see...
Haiz here goes...
I guess im not a person sometimes. I feel like im two, no its no mental disorder, its juz a clash of personality due to nature and nurture. Truth is i feel like killing u guys for doing tat... Why i dunno? Caused i feel i deserver more than wat i got after wat i did.. And yes i really really really hate u guys soo much sooo soooo much juz beocz of that one act.. Haha so selfish huh, juz one act made me like this.. Many things i do half was to reconcile, half was to make u feel guilty.. I didnt wan to be the only one to suffer, i wanted ALL of u to suffer with me as much as i could.. And i am sooo pissed when i see u guys being all happy and stuff, i wanted u guys to suffer like i did... I wanted to inflict hurt.. Mean huh? But then the other half was feeling happy for u guys, i was happy that it didnt affect u guys as much as me when i saw u all happy and stuff... I was hoping tat none of u would be too sad, to breakdown.. I felt guilty and happy when i know one of u cried over this... Huh cant believe i felt happy... Wtf? I tot u were my friends why do i enjoy hurting u? I dun know and i still dun, but i enjoyed it... I was soo angry tat ur looked so happy even after everything, i was so angry coz all of u are still so bonded when i strayed, i wanted to break it as much as i could i wanted u all to suffer as much or more than i did, i couldnt stand each second i looked when ur were happy... I despised u but i despised myself.... Im feeling bad coz of u guys, im feeling worse coz u seem happy and i feel worst for being such an asshole... But then its great, none of my evil deeds succeeded, i and im stilll half happy and half sad... Lols now do u really understand why im so torn between love and hate, its juz a simple statement, but its much deeper than that, from this i could see how disgusting i can be... To actually enjoy hurting ppl.... haha, i haf nothing to say really... Nothing to say in my defence for being such a bastard, becoz i feel disgusted when i rmb the other half, the half where i was so selfish tat i didnt break u... Yet when i feel disgusted, i cant help but still to enjoy it... I really dunno wat to do or think for this matter, becoz for every good thing i want to do, i want to do an evil thing....I guess this is how complicated feelings are, too feel both extremes at once... I dunno i feel childish when im typing this coz i saw some ppl type this kinda things b4 and i tot that they are juz trying to show that their life sux and bla bla bla bla crap.... But this is really the reason why im like this, i guess it broke my limit, maybe im no longer sane when thinking about this, i really lost it.. My breaking point is reached and i've really really gone mad...
Well if u were that bunch off ppl i was talking about and u managed to read till here, i wan to say thank you becoz i hate to be a faker and i wan to show u this for a reason i cant find the words to explain... I juz hope u guys dun get angry too long after reading this. becoz this act is a good one, and i really not lying, why would i bother to show u all this? It wont hurt u, it would only pose as a threat, a realy realy big threat that u guys will despise me for life... If u dun believe this was for good.theres nothing i can do..
Cya

2008-04-02T05:47:00.000-07:00

Huh.. I pity the ppl reading the blog sometimes, dun u feel like ur reading crap that u dun understand alot of times?
Lols, maybe i shld blog about more everyday stuff, but i guess my blogs use is not tat rite now, its use is as some1 to talk about sad things to, beocz the other1 is gone alrdy...
DAMMIT I GOT A PICTURE OF MEI QUAN THE LAUGHING BUDDHA AND I CANT PUT IT UP!!!!
Haiz...
Mq is learning how to not get bullied, hope that he nvr learn its completely, juz not enuf for him to stop me from having my fun with him:)
Lala, hope Zq is next so he wont be bullied so often as well:)
Damm crap....
I finally found something that i cant do even with time and willpower, and it bugging me!!!! Fuck!!!!
Sometimes i wan to bash u all up into a pulp u know!!!! U piss me off becoz i i hate to be the one still being pissed about it!!! But i guess im pissed not at the ppl, but at the act.. I guess im pissed at my helplessness...Oh damm, if only i knew how to scream i scream my head off at ur stupidity, and be afraid that the friendship will weaken. Trapped between anger and fear, hatred and love.... Wah, i dun find studying stressful, it a breeze to me... But i find my feelings stressful for its killing me-.-"Haha this is exaclty two months alrdy, i guess im really a petty person-.-"
But i guess this pathetic blog is not even close enuf for me to blow off my emotions, i nid something or someone that can help me feel better....
Argh, everytime i blog i think about this, but i really love to blog when i found something that i really wan to say... Sian!!! Is it the way the blog looks? Mayeb i shld change it so that i wont be reminded of that time, or is it msn when i see em online maybe i shld stop signing in at all... is it the fact i always look at every1 blog before coming to my own, maybe i shld juz come straight to the dashboard next time to blog... Erm i guess i will show my true feeling in the next post, the ugliess side of me that u will probably ever see...
Wonder wat will happen when i post it, juz hope that the reaction will not be as dramatic as i imagined, i dun wan to be ostracized or be like asther for wat im gonna do really make me feel like her in more than one way...
Cya soon, very soon in about 10 seconds perhaps!!!

2008-04-02T05:30:00.000-07:00

Read a book, i guess it really meant alot to me, becoz it confirm a fact, the fact tat im a born loser...
There are 3 brothers,
brother one, a natural at everything, nvr failed, and every1 needed him but the best thing was he needed no one, he could survive alone but his "friends" wont be able to survive without, he would bleed for no one, yet every1 would bleed for him.
brother two, every1 that saw him loved him, he would get watever he want without doing anything, he would nvr apreciate anything but ppl loved him more than anything else juz becoz of him charm. No matter how much of a bastard he was, ppl still cant stop but love him becoz he is juz too charming.
brother three, a lonely bastard as labelled by his 2nd bro and a loser by his first bro. He was born a loser, nvr did anything but stand at a side and look or to fail at everything he tried. He had no friends no ability no talent nothing but he was hungry so hungry to be something tat it hurt. He succeed everyonce in a while but it was nothing compared to every1 else. He couldnt do anything but to dream of a better life, becoz when its not real, u get everything u wan, but when its reality is juz strikes hard down on u.
But juz as every1 tot that the 3rd bro looks up to his other 2, its was actually the other 2 tat looked up to him, becoz the two brothers were born with everything they could dream of, everything was so easy to them, they could do everything so easily, yet they could even imagine, juz imagine how their 3rd brother got true everyday always struglling juz to be okay while they juz kept succeding...
I guess its not always the winner that deserves respect, sometimes i guess the loser that kept trying is the one that deserves it...
Juz becoz u are born without talent doesnt mean that u will always be a loser, i guess its juz gives u a harder way up but u learn more and get more satisfied when u reach the top...
I guess im like the 3rd bro, in some ways but not all, but i always read books about succesfull ppl, lucky ppl and ppl with talents in everyway possible. But this book showed me how reality is, its mean but it does has it soft side too..
I try as hard to get wat i want, but i guess for now happiness throws stones, it defends itself...
Cya... Im not emo-.-" I juz dun like to be happy all the time..

2008-03-30T08:01:00.000-07:00

Tml school start le.. Quit Cabal.. Quit lan and quit dota..
Concentrate on losing weigh and studying...
Pass A maths Ace sciences do more hmwk....
Haiz... If only i can make sure tat i keep to it-.-"
Check list for amaths chapters tat need to learn.. Any1 can help me?
Saw Z.N. blog, hey bro dun be too sad ya, i guess at this age there not muhc reason to live coz we dun appreciate wats nid to be and we dun haf any real things to do...
Let me tell u my reason to live now.. Its stupid but at least i haf one, and its to make much much money for my grandma as soon as possible.. So tat i can at least repay her b4 she departs from my life...
I guess u nid to find urs too, it doesnt haf to be very noble or wtv juz a simple one like mine tat way at least u haf something to work for:)
Well try to be content with wat u haf now but then try to get more if possible bah.... And if u got something u wanna do juz do it, for even if u fail at least u grow stronger and learn.. Its much better than nvr doing anything and regreting that u didnt do it when some1 succeeds..
Cya...

2008-03-29T07:17:00.000-07:00

NEKOKI'S STORY!!!
http://www.onemanga.com/REC/29/13/
This is wat i read, its about a voice actress and some salaryman who got tgt...
i think its quite nice, but abit pervert lols..
But the nekoki part is clean, no worries:)
Cya

2008-03-29T02:25:00.000-07:00

Haiz.. This few days i learned something so important, i tot it was a bad thing but i guess it was good at the end. I didnt expect it to be this way, i guess somethings make u see things u dun really see.. Or in this case feel...Lols yeah after i injured my toe i realized that im super clumsy and haf sudden kicks when sitting down....
My computer chair wheel ran over my toe.. Ouch
I kicked the table while eating.. Ouch
I stepped on my own toe.. Ouch
I hit my toe on the raised toiler floor when going in. Ouch
So yeah i guess injuries do make u realize that i hit much much more thing than i to i did... I juz didnt know coz it didnt hurt lols...Thick skin-.-"
No cabal.. Super sian tat why come blog blog...
Reading manga.. gana chided coz got sex scene o.OLols
Now im reading doraemon, couldnt find digimon or pokemon manga there...
Haiz, now my dad gonna keep peeking once in a while to see wat im reading..
How annoying its gonna be..
Cya

2008-03-26T08:05:00.000-07:00

Blah blah many ppl got their own philosies.. Dont regret lah, erm value ur life ah.. ur life is like money spend liao no more lah. Live for tml for yerterday cannot be change lah.. Wah seems like so disferent, but they are pretty much the same.. Its juz whether its potrayed as negative or positve. And its juz that i prefer the negative one...
i guess for me its, the harder it is to achieve the better victory feels, but harder it is to achieve the more effort needs to be put in and the more effort that s put in, the wosre failure will feel and the worse failure feels the better victory feels...
Not bad not a very big round b4 u come back all over again...
And hedonism, drink and make merry today, for tml we die.
For me, play lan and run todae, for tml i die, coz of undone hmwk..
Its lame but its all to true...
Dun regret what you did, i guess thats not possible, somedays u gotta fail, and when u fail u regret doing it. Unless u are gonna do everything u wan and succeed, i guess every1 gotta haf their own regret.. But i guess regret are there for a very important reason, so that we wont make the same mistake again.. So regret mite be good, unless it a damm stupid one...
I didnt blog for very long.. And i dun really enjoy blogging anymore. I blog coz i haf too little friends, no one to talk to lonliness causes me to seek warmth by expressing myself in a blog. But now i felt having little friends is enough, too many friends will juz cause problems..
Choose friends wisely, its another one of the things in which quality not quantity is worth..
Guess no matter how many friends u haf, there will be time where u will be alone, but the more times u feel lonely, the more the friends will mean to u..
Haiz, the post became longer than expected again, i guess i juz kept developing stupid ideas when im bored.. Well its my blog anws, it will nvr scold me for being too talkative or deny me acess to it...
Cya..

2008-03-20T01:11:00.001-07:00

Dammit was too nervous and shaky... guess i wont make it pass the preliminaries... how dissapointing... And and pak siong sang btter than me...-.-"
Dammit..
Cya

2008-03-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

Its gone.. No more sjab.. Time has stopped at that moment.. And i guess nothing will change for quite some time...If even when we met there was no change i dun think anything will happen if we dun... So thats it? Guess it was still all talk... No work...
I seriously hate this man, wtf...
Is this the end, with nothing changed, after so much time, its still the same.
Sad aint it>?
Cya...

2008-03-16T07:26:00.000-07:00

Yo whoever this is... I took a 3 day break from life itself.. No thinking of anything but games, no hmwk, no bothersome things.. Pure enjoyment.. Man it rox!!
Played Cabal lv from 1 to 46 in 3days0.O
Lols.. As i said all enjoyment, play comp like almost 1/2 of 24hours everyday, went lan play abit bball eat food go out watch movie.
Omg Rule#1 ROX!!! The plot is damm nice and it scares ppl not with gore but with sound... cool huh.. Really its the sound tat scares u the producers damm good at using the sound..
But as a result of the enjoyment, i didnt doo ALL my hmwk LOLS.. But it was worth it...
Time to die tml...
CYA!!

2008-03-10T05:02:00.000-07:00

Wow.. Its amazing how fast my heart starts beating when i almost get to use the comp... Its like so hard to get so pumped even when playing basketball but the thought of reading some blogs was able to do it so easily Wow.. Amazing lols!!! Seriously the feeling is soo cool....
Anws haha los no sec 4s going for sjab camp.. Other than asther.... Haha the bunk got timmy naz hy and asther lols.. I wouldnt want to be in there HAHAHA lols... So good huh the way they repay some of the hardwoking sec 4s for what they haf done.... After they sacrificed so much time and effort they get this kinda treatment... But then again it happens all the time... Loved the camp last year.. Scared the crap out of some ppl like asther... Who said she NOT scared when she screamed the loudest HAHAHAHA!!! Fucker
Sian sia now msn still sian sian... Hj and gang rarely logs in, Si en came back from pahang now go to sjab camp.. So that leaves no one who want to talk to me... Sian... And the blogs are dissapearing... And updating slower and slower...
Geez, teck jun didnt go sch and i couldnt contact coz he was sleeping.. TILL 4pm!!! Wth... keep calling and wondering why he never come sch... In the end he in dreamland-.-" ming fong phone not working gave me such a hard time contact and finding out whether the watever its called is still on.. In the end went sleep then receieve msg read liao then go sleep again.. In the end no haf the watever its called-.-"
Pri sch friends asked me to go to teachers house at 5pm and reach there at 6... No prior notice one... How to go-.-" But i really liked that teacher... So long nvr see her liao....
Stupid drama serials... Hate them!!!
Cya

2008-03-08T04:09:00.000-08:00

Lols.. Yay Si en is back!!! Welcome back lols even damm im so late...
Also todae is KMF B-day... Happy B-day Kmf!!!
Went bball no ppl playing match sibei sian sia... Then at home si en so busy comp also sian sia... Like everywhere also so Sian.... Maybe school is a good thing!! Also, dota comp also dunno when sia.. scully clash with classes.. I think the stupid karaoke i cannot join leh.. Wtf suddenly in the morning they come say the cd muz hand in todae without any prior notice!!! WTH!!! KNS!!!
Stupid sia.. Now this whole hols so sian full of classes nia...
Lols Si en saw a DEAD squirrel on the FLOOR in the OPEN and tot it was SLEEPING OMG!!!!! HAHAHA which squirrel sleeps in the open on the floor OMG!!! HAHAHAHA DAMM FUNNY
Damm my sideburns are growing painfully slow....-.-"
SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIANNNNNNNN!!!! Supersian, stupid sia now i wish i hadnt went for ANCO.....

2008-03-06T04:03:00.000-08:00

Dammmm sian.... Omg come home at night comp damm boring sia... Msn also like no use de..-.-" Stupid...
Wah damm fuck sia.. I know i normally do badly for cca... But to fail my average? Wth... Omg sia, 38 in class leh.. CB.. Failed BOTH SCIENCES?? Wat the hell..... I nvr imagined this day would come... Wth sia... Failed A maths and english too.. but a maths is sure fail one and eng fail coz write out of point... But both science wat the fuck....
Damm boring sia at nite from 8 to 10... But soon got dota comp and after that i promise myself i will work harder for my academic liao.... Shit sia.. I muz get at least 3 A and the rest can work later.. but still muz work harder... So far nvr do work and some concepts not sure but sure can catch up one... Abit more work juz abit more determination....
Fuck sia, my friends like all dun read blogs one and if they knew i had i blog they would probably think im sissy...-.-"
Sian, all the go with the flow ppl... So normal... Do something out of the ordinary for once will ya.. Different isnt always bad!!!
Damm bored ok shall go dota now.. Muz win the comp and get the $$ then go study after tat.. Sian march got so many classes sia.. Shall skip Sjab march camp :)HEHE
Tat means i only went for ONE march camp in the whole sec sch life!!!
Cya

2008-03-04T04:09:00.000-08:00

Haiz.. When Si en go Pahang, my tagboard and msn de life also go to pahang.... Like dead liddat one... Eee.. Cant believe im really missing the meanie....
Hope u dun die from leeches there!!!
Damm sian seh... I think im becoming more useless by day... Omg failed chem test also.... Wtf.... All the answers all wrong sia... Cb... Study but i guesssed rmbed the facts wrongly.. Muz get assessment books and start studying after dota comp over...
Damm sian... I dun wan to die yet... I still wan to haf a purpose!!!!

2008-03-03T04:32:00.000-08:00

Ouch.... Ouch.... Damm tired but csnnot sleep.... Sian....
So sian, cannot concentrate when playin dota, scared pull the team down....
Test results like shit.. Failed physic 18 mark.. kns.. This the 2nd time i failed, and the previous time i fail coz i was unwell... Walao....
Cannot play bball, ball fly past liao then i catch-.-" So slow... Cannot shoot also.. Lay-up not fluid... Wth
English oral didnt get good remarks either...
Physics spa damm low.. 6/10... Wth i did properly still so low...
Sore throat all day, got pheglm cannot spit out...
Cannot reach those note even in Ai Ai Ai....
Walao.. damm screwed the comp i dun even know wat song i wan to sing yet...
Sian sia.... Wth.... Why so kns one....
But still i feel better now, after talking to ppl and knowing the whole story....
Muchhh better:)

2008-03-01T22:38:00.001-08:00

Stop asking me to forget about it.. Stop saying why is it so hard for me to forget all the bad things... Stop making it seem like its possible to forget...
So wats if its been a month... How bout ur part at fault, why couldnt u juz haf tot of me that day? Why couldnt u juz haf chose the other option. Why couldnt ur juz for once appreciate what i wanted to do... U cant change the past, i cant forget the past coz it happened... There nothing i can do, i did so much alrdy...
U made ur choice tat day. its hurt me, and even after tat still manty things u do hurt me.. Why? I did not do anything bad to u, i wanted u all to be happy, why it had to be me again... I could not choose my life, but i chose my friends and i did as much as i could for them.... I dunno how many times i posted about this.. And i cant stop till all my pain is gone... Why are u always asking me to forget!!! I cant!!! Why dun u think whether is it tat im unable to to dun wan to.. i dunno.. I still like u all so much but im so torn between anger and sadness... U guys still got anrgy at me?? Wat did i do wrong? JUZ WAT DID I DO WRONG??

2008-03-01T20:28:00.000-08:00

One last thing.. Why did u all choose to go for the pop that day? Wat did who say that was so important?? Why did u all do that in the first place?? Why?? What was the reason, i know rite now i cant change the fact, but i still want to know why and what was so impt that ur had to leave me behind?? What was it? Was it so meaningful??
U are sad coz u choose other than wat i wanted to do for u, i am sad coz u didnt choose wat i wanted to do for u... I think it was u who caused the sadness in the first place, u all care do u? But why didnt u care tat day??

2008-02-29T02:57:00.000-08:00

Oh yes.. U dont know why i am so petty and selfish that even so long after the incident im still avoiding u guy eh..
Well if u try taking my place how would u feel huh? I really was look forward to it, i first tot of it when u all were so sad over the POP thing, so i wanted to organize something after that to show that we can still stay tgt after we pass out. Even when u sort of got over it i still wanted to carry it out. Even when i couldnt go i still wanted to organize it so that even without me ur stillc an enjoy it. I was so dissapointed when i realise i couldnt go. I talked to my mom so as to go with u guys, i was so excited about it. Looking forward to it, thinking of it the nite b4 when i was sleeping. And the day came. Oh yes i was looking forward to it the whole time, till even when mr toh came and told u guy u had to go.. U all were still telling me yes ur are not going. yes ur dun wan to go. Yes lets cont with the plan and go enjoy at jm house... I saw u guys, i tot ur were hesistating again becoz ur didnt dare. i walked out, yes with a reason nonetheless but none of u told me eh we dun haf reason leh how?.... I walked off hoping so hard ur will folo, i sent u the nite b4 those who go the the pop are dogs and when i left i sent that humans pls meet at the bustop... Wow ur didnt care did u.. Oh yeah WOW ur abandoned me.. Oh yes its so true is it not? I went alone all u who were suppose to go didnt.... U all pang seh me tgt didnt u? U tell me lah, in wat way was i wrong in this so incident so far. I wanted to help, i bothered to plan, i continued even when i couldnt go and none of u objected even till the very last minute.. NO UR JUZ WENT FOR THE THING UR DIDNT THINK HOW I FEEL UR DIDNT CARE BOUT MY FEELINGS, JUZ MR TOH'S TALK WAS ENUF TO MAKE ME GET OUT OF UR MIND TOTALLY.. DUN TELL ME ITS FOR THE SCHOOL, AND U DIDNT HAF REASONS.. IF U REALLY DID CARE, WHY DIDNT U ATTEND THE PAST TRAININGS!! U ALL ALSO HAD REASON FOR THEM RITE?
The reason why im so sad so angry.. IM more sad then angry now. Was so stupid of me to get so attached to u guys. U really was and i swear was the first bunch of ppl i really got so close to.. I like so many of u guys, i guess the feeling was one sided.. And i would NEVER be the one in the room, coz i would nvr had abandoned u when i said i will not i would stick with u guys.... If we were to get in trouble i would get into trouble with u guy too.. TOGETHER!! The reason why i cant forget is because of how close i was with u guys, how happy the times we had tgt.. U think if it was some other group of ppl.. to cite an example my lan friends.. If they were to do the same to me do u think i will be anrgy and sad for so long NO!!! Its because it was u guys, the group of ppl that i really used to love so much...
Oh man, friends who dun think they are wrong to not keep to what they say, friends who get pissed becoz i cant forget, friends who would choose a talk from a teacher over a friend... OMG u know how much u hurt me.. Its so nice for u to say its me who is pettty, its i dun wan to talk to u guys, but u think.. If it was not u guy tgt, but me and the rest and u alone HOW WOULD U FEEL....
Oh yeah i want to be selfish for once, im always losing out arent I?
If i forget i must juz treat it as it nvr happened put that plastic smile over my face so as to continue and perhaps get more happy things to forget this one.. If i dun i lose all of u guys tgt.. U think lah JM SJ FY JM MF... 5ppl in total.. U tell me how hurt would u be?? When everyone pang seh u tgt, no it may be nothing for u to pang seh me, but think how muz it was for me to be pang seh by all of u...
U think i like it? U think i like to fallout with friends, u think i like to not be able to look at where i want to whenever u are around? U think it fun and do anything for me.. No it doesnt i dun like u dun like it. But u think as me now, how would u not mind all this...
Dunnid say about 020208 nia, i can even rmb up till our BFA. Wat we did, with junyee talking with me the first time and me saying such stupid things that i regret until now.. Oh yes i do rmb the good things but the bad things cant be deleted from my mind juz like tat...
I dun like either.... But im not able to juz forget it so easily... Dun u understand??

2008-02-28T04:08:00.000-08:00

Yes it is hard... I can say it i cant do it.. Juz like u guys... Tmf wasnjt even intending to go with us.. So ur didnt even pang seh him at all, it was me... And i juz hate the fact that watever happened in the past i cant only forgive i can only forget... I hate it. i hate it so much and i dun want it to happen again so much that i wan to make sure i will nvr get so attached to ppl ever again... Yes it damm hard, yes i should forget but i cant... It aint easy, and i dun even haf the want to talk to ur, i can only rmb tat date when i see u guys... Wat to do? I cant juz delete the memory i cant juz pretent it didnt happen.. I dun think ur will understand coz im juz very different from u guys. But still i want to at least try, to at least see if anyone can understand to even a slight extend how much it affects me... Yes u dount like it.. And i dont like it either... Buts its juz the way it is.. I cant change the past, i cant change the mindset.. I can only hope that as soon as possible i can look back and think how stupid i was to be so petty and that will be the day it will return to the past again....
Let time heal all wounds, we cant undo the past, we can hellp the present , and we can change the future.. And the only way to help is the one thing i cant do juz yet....
Fucking limitations...

2008-02-27T04:14:00.000-08:00

Sian... Damm boring... I been exercising so much and i dun seem to be losing much weight... Cb... I jog like 3-4times a week 20 mins each and still no use... Walao..
Damm boring in class.. Damm tired but muz try my best to stay awake... SS test failed.. Cb.. But now i finally get wat explaination and details really are... And also english failed, misintepret the question.. But failed only by one mark so its ok.. Since out of question is sure fail de...
Then also played bball today at last!!! Woot so fun, dota comp in march so excited!!!
So bad results so far... But i pass my econs suprisingly... Wth.. I didnt even know like mreo than half the questions.... But my chinses got 60!!! ITS A RECORD FOR LUCIUS LEE!!!!!
Haiz... This few days also nvr do much.. Training is shit, i dun like to stay in the room but there no where to go.... Its juz stoning for 3 hours and then go home...
And i wan to try the game the ncc was playing.. So fun!!!!! OMG.. If i was there earlier i would haf joined them sia...
I hope im growing taller, doc say im 160cm now... Hope its not a mismeasuement...
Cya

2008-02-24T04:59:00.001-08:00

So fast weekend over.. I tihnk mostly coz of the fucking POP bah waste time nia...
Lols both my year the ncoc got something bad happened lols.. Bnco lost my wallet my supposed friend supposedly took it.. Bronson u bitch if i see u i will smack u... Anco fallout with my batch... Dammit lols.. The curse of the ncoc
Anws finally went to the gym with my papa, got 2 hot guys there. Wah the chest like damm big and the stomach like damm thin, like those really in the bodybuilding contest those kind.. Then i also saw eddie tan...
Go cut hair.. Dammit i really do haf hair loss... Weak hair folicles, nid to get treatment KNS... So many problems sia.. height problem, face problem, hair problem, social problem, nose problem and health problem.. Cb, why my teenage life so kanasai one.. B4 puberty my life was like so much better... No problems one lor.. Cb
My mother told me why be so miserable because of this, i said how can i not be when there are so many problems...
Yeah maybe i should juz forget about all this problems, but its so hard when they are affecting me everyday...
Shit...
Cya

2008-02-23T06:43:00.001-08:00

So he doesnt really sing THAT WELL does he.. Omg but still its a nice song...

2008-02-22T05:29:00.000-08:00

L change the world!!!Ken'ichi Matsuyama is so cute...omg... He damm shuai, but looks kinda sometimes coz he too pale... But the girl was like so cute omg.. a twelve year old chio bu... Japanese ppl ah... So blessed... Finally wore the stupid long sleeve green tee.... I like it!!! Sian tmk POP haven polish boots and haven cute hair.. Omg i dun wan my hair gana cut by some other 16 year old kid or non-barber or something... Omg... But heng heng got chem in the morning.. for once im thankful to haf xtra lessons....
Quite shiok to see the counter jump from 30+ to 60 lols...
yeah gonna join karaoke comp, but dunno how to sing... Gonna join dota comp and i dun haf experience with the team... Lols.. Sounds screwed...
Cya

2008-02-21T03:46:00.000-08:00

LANNNN AGAIN!!!!
Lols... Chem test wasnt so hard...I guess studying really does make the test much more easier... Then SS.. Sian prob wont do well liao... Haiz... Zhi Rong is a big bully... Lucky nvr bully me... heng ah... Anws.. tml amaths test.. Sian, now mood to practise.. Anws got formula sheet.. Juz nid rmb the R-formula can liao... Good sia two more day.. Sjab will be sort of over.. YAY!!!!
Dota dota dota... Lucky got dota, if not life now would be uber sian....
Cya

2008-02-20T06:34:00.000-08:00

Hmm... How different our views are.. I cant understand u all coz i am still damm pissed... If u do bother, yes i would bother if u all cared.. But i expect that if we try to clear the misunderstanding would only result in fuelling more anger... The fact is that I wont say im totally wrong nor will u say ur are totally wrong.. Buts its great aint it.. Its me alone and u all together so what do u haf to lose, u guys lose one Me.. I lose so many Us..
Yeah i think ur trying to say that me saying i haf a reason is my fault izzit? Not sure dun get it anws.. But i would say i didnt want to go if it would make u guys go.. But would it? I dun think so... But its kinda good, since i said a reason, its no longer ur fault.. The sad thing is not becoz u didnt keep ur promise... The sad thing is becoz i feel like i was abandoned, when even after i went out u all still decided to go.. I guess i really haf no value huh? No importance.. I think if it was jm or sj or fy or jy, u all would haf foloed..But sadly it was me and it didnt work tat way did it? All i can blame is on myself now, becoz of my natural reaction i haf a reason to not go... I was so looking forward to the day our seemingly last day together.. But i guess the day seemed to be one of the worse i ever had huh? And its not a small. thing... Its a dammm big thing for me... I dun mind if u dun understand u can post ur reply on ur blog i will read it.. But then again maybe it will cause more probs... Maybe not? i dunno i was wrong b4..I mite be wrong again... So yeah if u really mind give it a shot.... But i guess u all wont bother huh?
Nice broken... My friendship with so many ppl.. juz in one event, juz in one day, fragile is the bond... Takes so long to build, yet so easy to break huh?
Sad....

2008-02-20T05:52:00.000-08:00

Now tat i think of it.. Im actually quite xtra... I mean, everything goes on without me... But i cannot go on when juz one person dun agree.. Its like im not impt anws, and somemore i guess after ANCO POP we wont be seeing each other anymore.. So i guess, maybe its ok remaining like this, not really a point to fix the problem, coz no one wants to and i guess im getting used to not havin u guys around anymore... If im gonna be an xtra, i think i rather no be anything at all...
Anws outside sjab, fuck sia.. didnt study for 2 test im gonna fail em both.. Phys and Econs.. Nb my two better subs.... Skipped geog.. Tot will gana heavy punishment but in the end juz gana nid to do mindmap... Been jogging quite a bit this few days... 3 times so far.. i guess mon wed and fri seems good... Sian this week haf to go POP instead of dim sum dollies.. kns.. but yeah i haf chem in the morn so can skip the tiring rehearsal... Good... Tml got chem test.. Sian.. Lucky study liao, not really very long either... I dun wan cut my hair again.. Fucking shit, we haf no freedom we haf no say we will be free after o' lvs that day... Im being lame again...
Cya
LOLs so long nvr see the tiny red words le.. I miss em... Haha

2008-02-17T02:38:00.000-08:00

Well i brought forward the date... I wish no longer to cause hurt to myself and my friends... This stupidity, all the problems could be avoided so easily...
I admit now its my fault for being so petty, getting so pissed over some stupid incident for sooo long, but this is how i feel and i cant change it... Juz like i cant change it if any1 feels that wat im doing is stupid or anything, its free will..
Im still angry though, and i do wish none of this had ever happened... Juz one day, everything changed huh? So many days building up our friendship ruined so easily.. So fragile aint it... Huh and i tot i was smart, in the end im the one adding to the problem..
Dun mind the previous posts, things changed and its no longer ur fault its mine... I will not say im the one who is the most hurt, but im sorry for any sadness i caused u....
This problem will be solved, juz not now...
And ur are NOT insignificant in my life.... Its not as if i dun care, im trying not to....
Rest assured my wrath is not eternal and juz like its consequence it will be solved....
Let time heal all wounds and for now just bear with it...

2008-02-16T05:20:00.000-08:00

Haiz, i shouldnt be acting noble when im not... Bothering to do this shit... Fuck, maybe i shall put it back soon... Since its not gonna change much for them, but its helps me much more....
Fuckin POP, hate going there, physically, mentally and any other way possible.... Juz reminds me soo well....
I guess i will put it back on 23Feb
23Feb, the beautiful date.... Oh the excitement from the reaction....
Cya

2008-02-12T07:29:00.001-08:00

Parents gana called again... Nvr hand in A an E maths chinese SS geog chem and econ hmwk... Lols almost all the subs!!! Anws... Went zr house play dota abit play cat eat alot of nuts and insult each other's mother... No life huh?
Haiz i dun even know y im bloggin... There only one person other than me reading this and i dun even know who is the other person!!!
Random person o.O Secretive... Hees
Cya

2008-02-09T07:04:00.001-08:00

Oh fuck... It aint Zhi Neng now who could it be... DEAD:X

2008-02-09T06:25:00.001-08:00

Lols somebody did find it... Zhi Neng its u rite?

2008-02-02T06:39:00.000-08:00

I wish i could tell some1 that this blog is still around... I want them to see how sad i am.. Yet i dun wan to make them sad too... Omg.... I shall cry and faster sleep.. I really cant take anymuch more... Better shut off b4 i change my mind....
Even though theres no point,Cya

2008-02-02T06:27:00.000-08:00

U know wat? I've nvr felt so FUCKING SAD in my life... Almost all my friends abandoned me... They were saying they aint going they aint going, and wat happened all of them juz went... WTF... I so dissapointed and sad that i didnt even feel like scolding them at all.... U know how suckish it can be... I didnt even want to go the the damm POP i could haf juz went out with EL they all... But i tot hey its supposedly the last event.. So i went and i got FUCKING dissapointed... Its all rite... Its juz 5ppl.. I can do without them... Its the last thing i do, not to make them sad for abandoning me... It the last thing i will do for them.... Its so stupid.. Ppl see me as a racist bastard, insensitive bitch.. When i feel maybe if they haf realize and had greater awareness.. They would haf known wat i had done....
This is the last.... I've given up....

2008-02-01T04:49:00.000-08:00

Im so sad.....
Tml after POP got outing i guess.. But then i got reunion dinner at 5.30!! So early huh? Then i cant go liao!!! NOOOOO UNless every1 put their uniform in the room and go out straigh after POP... But still got the important ppl.. Elmo and Bangla got remedial.... Later if drag then how!!! Haiz... Guess i cant go tml bah... Haf fun guys....:(
Wah todae actually wan go lan one.. But went for dry run... Had to shake hand with the MEANIE twice!!! Nooooo!!!! Then after tat..... Shallt post tml... Shant spoil the suprise.. If it is one!!!
Then went home go running.. I ran the whole way till the end!! YAY!!!!
So tired... It was rainin...
Anyways gonna haf MASS CONVER SOON!!! Haha Asther I hate u!!! HAHA!!!
Cya

2008-01-31T04:11:00.000-08:00

Heh.. Todae stole MQ phone and kept it with me for about the whole day.. Then return the phone to him after school.. I took picture of ruben and shaun, but it became too black we couldnt see who is who and who are they!!!! Then after that went to play bball... Me and HJ vs some sec 3 guys.. We won!!! Then i vs HJ I WON!!!! Lols... After tat went lan again... Omg freaks!!! Me and Hj vs some other 2guys... We won!! And they kinda got their asses handed over to them LOLS!!! Skill difference to big le... Then after tat vs some guy called Nick.. At first i winning.. Then after that I gana owned... Nick is too pro... But we didnt get our ass handed to ourselves. We managed to kill them quite a couple of times.... Then i play the BEST dota match in my life so far.. Even though we lost it was damm fun.. All the 6 ppl is real pros.. Except maybe me and some other dude... But seriously when playing with pros.. It juz feels different and more exciting!!! Went home took 14 with HJ and Kenny(the pro)!!! He say nick is a noob.. Omg insult me even more-.-" Damm sian.. Seems like I may be good but still nowhere near competition standard yet....
Cya!!!

2008-01-30T05:54:00.001-08:00

OMG SI EN IS A MEANIE!!!!
Todae damm funny... School damm boring... As usual... Then after that went play lan with HJ but b4 that i went to play bball, omg its so hard to play bball the sun is so bright, cant see the hoop... After that went lan me and hj vs some other 2 guys!!! WE OWNED!!! Omg.. And I got better score than HJ!!! Woots!!!
Reach home my teacher called me... Ask me why i nvr go remedial... Then i say i dunno i got and i went home.. Then she ask are u sure u didnt go gaming... I was like Omg-.-" dead!!! Lols.. but in the end alls well ends well.. And nothing happened bah, i hoped....
Cya!!!

2008-01-29T06:27:00.000-08:00

School starts school sucks.. So far had quite a few test.. E and A maths, Phys, Chem and Econs...
E maths got 19/20!!! PRO HUH Lols... Then Econs 16/20 not bad bah.. top 5.... and i didnt haf the note to study..-.-" Chem was pretty easy hope can get quite good marks.. Phys was like wth... So damm easy... Omg.. The only reason im gonna lose marks is coz of one careless and coz i didnt listen in class so i dont know anything bout the diode....
Todae sjab games day.. Play netball haflways rain kns... Then i shoot the ball Ming Fong0 miss Shi Jun miss cannot catch in the end Jun Yee caught it.. With her head...
Sorry.... I didnt see u when kmf was so fat? Kmf u fat meh? Coz he too tall....
Its damm boring in school... And good now no more sjab!!! But i will go though... See the TOC... But its gooood now no one can bother me for not doing anything and i dun haf to feel guilty for not scolding... I think girls are really more suited for sjab bah... I dunno juz haf the feeling tat guys dun really/cant really enforce discipline... Its always the girls scolding ya see? Lols, sian few generations down and the men will be the weaker sex huh? Lols...
School sux.. But LAN is there to make it all better!!!!
Cya

2008-01-26T07:13:00.000-08:00

Wtf... Wat were u thinking.. If u haf no phone or no haf my number is my prob ah?? I was waited for 1hr plus leh!!! I tried calling ur house phone also no avail... Wat if i tot u were coming and juz late as ALWAYS, how long would i haf to wait? 1hour? 2hours? 3Hours? Even if u lost ur phone or something, its ur responsibility to tell some1 u wont be going rite?? Its not my problem that u dun haf my number.. Im sure u can contact me somehow, like asking some1 esle to inform me that u not coming rite? Lucky i called ur house in the end... If ur gonna get pissed, i haf nothing esle to say.. I dare to say NONE OF THIS IS MY FAULT, isnt it ok for me to be pissed? How could u not inform me that u not coming? How long u intend for me to wait for u?? HUH? I cant believe it, i wait so long in the end u juz told me u not coming.. I tot u were juz late as usual u know!!! I waited for 1HOUR!!!! FOR NOTHING!!!
Fucked up...

2008-01-25T07:08:00.001-08:00

OMG this is soo funny!!!!
I was in a mass conver... Then they ask me ask asther.. Then i type oh man i hate asther.. Then I didnt realize she was ALRDY IN THE CONVER OMG THATS SO OMG HAHAHA SOO FUNNY!!!!!

2008-01-25T07:08:00.000-08:00

2008-01-25T05:30:00.000-08:00

Lols... I cant concentrate on reading mangas after reading blogs lols... Too little info disclosed leading to many possible truths.. Argh lousy cant focus!!!! Omg hope this doesnt happen during exams or something...
I nid money for tml!!! Rawr, i saw Alan on my way to LAN lols...
Todae so boring eh.. Completed yet another ps2 game.. Omg lifeless game addict i am...
No school is fun!!!
CYA!!!

2008-01-23T04:18:00.000-08:00

Wah todae almost had a chance to finally fite.. But i missed it.. Actually nah, i didnt miss it. I wouldnt want to fight em anyways.. Omg if we did we would lose so patheticaly. There this huge bitch, i think he can join wrestling he is seriouisly damm big size.. If they didnt haf him i would haf gone straight man.. Fucking no life. We 4 ppl we sec 4 they 5 ppl dunno how goddam older than us they are and yet they want to fite.. Fuck off find some1 ur own size lah cb.... But anyways if they did start beating us i guess i wouldt fite than run... Im not that cowardly.. But i guess it would be a stupid thing to do.. Haiz why muz i be so short, if i was taller omg i wont have to ever back off from a fite every again...
And also todae hj got angry HAHAHA Smelly sia.. Lols play dota they got one of their friend in our team which was helping them, he was pulling us down by purposely dieing and show them wat we gonna do.... Wtf lah..
Damm sian.. 16 years old le.. Older than me bully me, younger than me bully me KNS!!! Omg... Im juz too small to do anything...

2008-01-22T07:02:00.000-08:00

This post would haf been longer.. But i guess theres no nid to write so long... Since its pretty obvious where the faults are..
The fact is I LOST, not due to cowardice this time(AT LAST SOME1 SPEAKS!!!) but because of my immaturity and lack of intelligence. But i guess its inevitable.. Since I so much younger and for the fact that im under them.
I think there something wrong with me, when the news of the POP was realeased i wasnt pissed at all, in fact i was kinda glad. I also tot that the ncos would be too, but in the end they were ALL damm pissed.. And i still dun really get why they got so angry. I know the reason i juz cant feel any anger at all.. And instead i got pissed of some fucking thing that no one even took notice of and i still am pissed.. Wtf am i really so different from u guys? Seriously....
Stupid todae gana called for not doing hmwk... Yeah thats fine with me but wtf u wan me slap myself for lying.. Fuck off!! Omg, like u nvr lie b4.. When children lie its bad... When adults lie its for a good purpose.. Wtf is the rationale? But i complete the work in the end anws..
Even though i said it would be longer, now its still pretty long lols!!!
Cya

2008-01-21T04:21:00.000-08:00

Wah!!! I wan money to buy new year clothes!!! Wah!!! No fair every1 got but i dun haf!!! Nooo!!!
Todae went LAN hahah We OWNED!!!! Both games wahaha im juz too good bah lols.... School is really really boring, maybe the teachers should try to be more understanding when we fall asleep during lesson... Sometime its juz so boring.. I know we arent supposed to but then listening to lecture after lecture(well sort of like lectures) its gets really tiring.. Especially humanities OMG THEY ARE SO DRY AND BORING!!!
Haiz.. School juz sucks bah, lucky there friends to make it betters:D

2008-01-20T04:17:00.000-08:00

I know i have something that i juz came to realize.. Its about significance but i juz can seem to put it in words... Bad my english fails me this time....
To all my friends!!!
Dun steal my position, I am emo, go be someone else alrites??
Lols...

2008-01-20T04:04:00.000-08:00

Chris Daughtry: Over You
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
And I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
And I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.'
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming.
And I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
And I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
Cause I got over you.Well I got over you.
I got over you.
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

2008-01-19T05:36:00.000-08:00

After meet parents session... went to meet kmf niggerless and pak siong at bedok inter... Seems like me and kmf was late by 45mins lols... Anws went to bugis.. Go see stuff.. Pak bought one pair of shoe and a watch.. The watch 5 bucks only leh!! omg i would buy if got one tat is nicer... Then went lan play for 2 hours.. I owned for both matches hahaha!!! After that went walk around again, then eng lee and shaun(nigger) came.. Went bedok play lan again... This time the niggerless treat.. So wth mite as well go... That match i gana owned like siao... Omg i was feeding.. Then went to mac to eat and tok crap... Wah todae quite fun spent almost whole day out came back only at nite which is now.... Weee.....\
Cya!!!

2008-01-18T06:46:00.000-08:00

Aiyo ppl nowadays so HUMJI... Scold ppl no name... Use nicks like -.-' and Me.. Knn lah u wan scold u dare scold then put ur name lah.. Like as if u no freedom of speech if u put name liddat.. fucking hum... Its becoz of humji ppl that influence other ppl to be humji... Humji... Anoymous ppl are shit...
Anws tml got POP seems like im the only sec 4 going from tms... But oh well..ANCO is not about training with ur own corp somemore anws.. Its about meeting other corp members... Sian sia the training... First aid, my first aid worse than junior most probably.. But the TIC juz came in and start scolding ppl... Omg i know u have good intentions, but wats the point of telling the ppl who came when u are scolding the ppl who didnt come... Its always liddat.. Thats why sjab sux!!! Also I think its cool that u look at me when u scolind slackers.. At least u got some guts.. HAHA but i guess next time u should talk to me to find out the whole picture first b4 u start aiming me....
Stupid day tml... POP i fear i will regret going sia... But i wonder why nid 4 trainings for one POP?? So much to train meh? Like 8 to 3 8 hours... 8Hours times 4 somemore 32hours.. Walan... One and a half days worth of hours leh... Wth.... But then its probably the last few sjab stuff i'll ever go liao, so yeah mite as well go now...
Cya!!!!

2008-01-16T05:04:00.000-08:00

Learning journey is... Stupid... But hey gotta give credit to the thing that allowed me to skip a maths!!! Thx LJ!!! Anws so bored this few days.. Actually no thats not rite... Im also bored... But this few days really nothing that is interesting and fun!!! All boring and stupid stuff... Rawr... another diliema is approaching and its all becoz of me!! Omg.. I always cause so much trouble, im not a trouble maker intentionally. I juz am... Haiz...
Its been so long since i wrote a chinese essay, and my chinese suck more than learning journey.. I couldnt write so many words!!! Lucky got dictionary...-.-'
Tml got ss and i haven done my essay and i dun have the question.. KNNCCB wah!! and also got chem test and my book and file is in class KNNCCB!!!! and also tml got geog and i lost my geog textbk and file KNNCCB!!!!!! Walao tml will be interesting but sadly not fun:(
Hahahahaha wat a stupid person I am!!!

2008-01-15T03:38:00.000-08:00

Its been so long since i took the bus alone..
And this time i thought but i thought of only one thing and one thing simple.. I realized who I loved the most.. And none of u will ever guess it!!! None of u!!! HAHAHA

2008-01-13T06:10:00.001-08:00

Haha Yet another pervert comic for me to read... Midori no Hibi!!! HAHAHA

2008-01-12T20:06:00.000-08:00

Haha... Jian Min thx... But ur soo wrong....
I dun get it... This three days dun make sense at all.....

2008-01-11T06:27:00.000-08:00

This post is dedicated to the my squad mates.. Those that did work... Especially our poor 2nd OC....
This is the most sincere and longest apology i ever tot of....
Im sorry for not doing anything for the corp.. Im sorry for playing around during training and influencing the juniors.. Im sorry for not having the heart to scold the juniors.. Im sorry for not doing my job... Im sorry for not being able to help... Im sorry for not setting a good example.. Im sorry for bringing down ur ideas when i cant think of any.. Im sorry for not having initative... Im sorry for anything else that pissed anyone of u of that i didnt type here...
After all this.. I really cant do anything else but to apologize....

2008-01-11T06:09:00.001-08:00

I feel so weird right now... Not angry, not disapointed, not sad, not happy, not regretful nor bored... I just dun feel very good and i feel like i can get it away by killing myself or killing some1 esle.. Both tat cannot be done... Feel like fighting rite now, but that cant be done as well.. Dammit.. Maybe its not tat im feeling none, maybe its becoz im feeling all...
Angry coz of some ppl actions.. Dissapointed at my own ignorance.. Sad for my fellow squad mates... Happy for passing out soon.. Regretful for not doing enuf when i had the chance.... Bored as there will be less time or no time being with the sec 4 squad anymore....
Scream!!! Scream Ur Fucking Lungs Out Tonight... For No One Will Matter Except U Tonight, May Everything Be Oblivious...For Once Be In Control And Fear Not The Consquences But Only The Regret From Not Doing So.... Scream Out All Ur Emotions.. Thats What Im Doing Tonight... I've Gone Mad At Last....

2008-01-11T05:12:00.001-08:00

And todae is Anger Day... Lols.. Cca orientation ended with a rather grande finale!!!
Anws i got the news im gonna pass out soon in 3 weeks time... For me its good news bah... Since i can finally get out of sjab liao.. But im afraid without sjab anymore... The sec 3 squad wont be as close le... Coz we wont get to meet each other so often anymore... But i do hope we can still be in touch as much as we can..... Now with cca out of the way... I guess i will have even more time than ever, so i muz finish my work and more!!!! Muz get good results for O's!!!!
Thats all folks!!!